Betrayal of the worst kind

I was reading recently in Matthew, the account of Jesus being betrayed by Judas and eventually lead to the cross of Calvary. The thought crossed my mind- "How could Judas betray Jesus like that. Just turn his back on the One who had proven Himself to be God. I'm not really in danger of completely and totally turning my back on Him like that. So what can I learn from Judas?" This whole thought process was based on my definition of the word "betray". Then I got to thinking- "I wonder what the actual meaning of the word is." I don't know why I was curious about this other than maybe it was the Lord putting it on my heart. So I looked up the word and this is the actual definition: "To be disloyal to by acting in the interest of the enemy."
Well....this is applicable now isn't it? It was seriously like my blood almost ran cold. Wow... when you hear it like that, I do have something in common with Judas. I have often been disloyal to Jesus by acting in the interest of His enemy, Satan. Every time I choose my way over God's, every time I say something rude or hateful to someone, every time I wallow in self pity, every time I let the world into my music and into my mind through too much entertainment...every time I sin essentially, I am acting in the interest of God's enemy. I am doing what He wants me to do even though it is harmful to my King. This is what betrayal is. Maybe thinking of it this way will help me to sin less.
The encouraging part is, Jesus knew that Judas would betray Him and yet he still chose him. Jesus knows me and my short comings. He knows my idiocy. He knew that I would betray Him even after He so lovingly saved me. But He still saved me and continues to bless me. What a good God. What a loving, merciful, awesome God. This should drive me to thankful obedience to His every word.

"Over time You've healed so much in me
And I am living proof
That although my darkest hour had come
Your light could still shine through.
At times it's just enough to cast
A shadow on the wall
O, I am grateful that You shine
A light on me at all

Who am I?
That You should love me so gently
Who am I?
That You should recognize my name
Who am I?
That You should speak to me so softly
Conversation with a love most high
Who am I?

Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see.
And the more I sing that sweet old song
The more I understand
That I do not comprehend this love
That's coming from Your hand.

Who am I?
That You would love me so gently
Who am I?
That You would recognize my name
Who am I?
That You would speak to me so softly
Conversation with a love most high
Who am I?

Grace, Grace
God's Grace
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within
Grace, Grace
God's Grace
Grace that is greater than all my sin"
-Point of Grace

"Lord, You had the splendor of heaven
A crown a robe and a throne
So what kind of love would lead You to leave
The safety of that kind of home?
I know that You willingly suffered
But why would You suffer for me?
I know what I am and I don't understand
How I could be worth Calvary.

When You knew I was lost
And You knew that a cross
Was the price You'd have to pay
When we cried "Crucify"
Lord, You didn't have to die
But You did it anyway
Now I'll never see
What You saw in me
Cuz You knew I would never be perfect
But I'm just so glad
That somehow You thought I was worth it!

Lord, Sometimes I feel like a vessel
Just useless old pieces of clay
But somehow You saw more
Something worth dying for
You paid more than You should have paid

When You knew I was lost
And You knew that a cross
Was the price You'd have to pay
When we cried "Crucify"
Lord, You didn't have to die
But You did it anyway
Now, I'll never see what You saw in me
Cuz You knew I would never be perfect
But I'm just so glad
That somehow You thought I was worth it!"
-Brian Free and Assurance